The Ex

So I just got done meeting Dylans ex girlfriend Danielle. She was nice but I think I'm gonna rate that an 8 on the awkward scale. Lots of quiet moments and wierd conversation. I don't know. A small part of me wishes I was apart of Dylans life like she was but then I have to remember that relationships take time. I love his momma and hope that one day I can create a great relationship with her. 

Thanksgiving Is Coming

Hmm Where does life have me right now. Tomorrow I leave with Dylan to go home with him for thanksgiving. Id be lying if I said I wan't slightly nervous but I'll get through it. Dylan had an interesting weekend. The boy gained his man hood and a small part of me is proud of him while another part of me worries.

Other than that me and Nate are better. I'm still slightly salty towards him but it's nothing I wont get over. Life is alright. Nothing to big has happened. Just kinda keeping things chill.

Awka-workshift

So I have a day of work that normaly wouldn't be anything but that. However I have to spend it with NAte Wynn. You know, that kid I'm not speaking with at the moment. 

Fun thing is, is that he knows I'm mad at him and he's keeping his distance and not saying shit. Works for me. 

Things change.

I was going through one of my other blogs and came across something that really messed with me. 

I kinda look at this list and am a bit surprised about how much of it is no longer true. There was once things I considered great and of a lot of importance and now there just now. Wow. 

HvZ is Fuck

The worst feeling in the world is finding out that the people you thought were your close friends, aren't. It kinda reminds me of the feeling I got when I realize that my family didn't want me and was giving up on me.

To fill you in a bit, HvZ required me to be impartial and rule in favor of who I think is right. When people find out I don't rule in there favor they get mad. Now I fully expected to have a lot of people mad at me but my friends? Nah didn't expect that one. All week long I've been given shit by Nate Wynn and last night me and him finally had it out. I let Basham go and he started yelling and lecturing me along with everyone else. Finally, I snapped.

I began yelling at him just like he yelled at me. Holly stepped in and yelled at both of us. I froze, I knew if I were to continue the argument nothing would of held me back from going after Nate and hitting him. So calmly I took of Nicks bag and gave it back to him and then I turned and left. I sat in the conference room until my meeting an hour later.

Now its the next day and I'm still pissed. I don't want to be mad at anyone but honestly I don't know how to get over it.

Theirs also another part to this story. I guess the hatred for me has spread through all the zombies. They have a group chat that tends to feature my name and pictures of me that people have taken. That doesn't bother me. What bothers me is that my friends sit there and talk shit with them also without backing me up. They don't stick up for me and honestly I'm beginning to wonder if they ever would.

Going To Hell

Things have been beyond crazy. HvZ started this week and since I'm on the eboard for the UGC, this means I have to head the whole event. I love this game so much but I am way beyond tired. Theres this thought that I feel like a horrible person because I am keeping my friendship with Chris alive but then again that's all it is....sorta. So maybe I'm still kissing and having sex with him... At first I felt horrible about this but then I slowly got over it. Now I'm beginning to feel bad about it again mainly because last night I went and "hung out" with my good friend Hunter.


I'm not a good person. I realize this BUT I am trying to change my ways and become a better person. I've started practicing my faith again and am trying to live by the rules of that minus a few tweaks here and there. Ill figure it out I'm sure.

tis what is is

Well you know things have been a little rocky which honestly is to make sense. My friend group has felt the tension of everything and its just been a little bit stressful. My boo Dylan has been giving me the third degree and I just didn't understand. Me him and Nate had a heart to heart today and now me and him are good. '

I'm slightly mad at Myles and Alison but I'm trying not to linger on it. I'm coming home for thanksgiving soon which excites me. I miss all my frands there. I won't really be staying there much since i'm living with my dad in Russiaville.

In other new I found a house for my friends and us to move into next year. We have a meeting with the renter next week and fingers crossed that everything goes well. I really want this to work out. I'm tired of searching for houses.

Prettttyyy Goooood

You know things are kinda in a right place. Chris and I are god friends, nothing more. Hunter and I are friends and I'm not upset by that. Everyone's being pretty cool and no ones really having problems. Schools going great, all my classes are fantastic and I'm doing well in them. Work is always fun, I love how it's given me the ability to me so many people on campus. Last year I knew very little. This year I know over half the campus and could easily talk to them if I needed to.

Things with my dad are working out and I'm actually about to declare myself as a Social Work/ Communications major. Lives good and I'm feeling pretty happy about that.

Halloween

Well Halloween went really well. On Halloween me and Chris actually ended up breaking up because I was always tired of him trying to start fights with me over the stupidest shit. Anyway as a way to get back at him I want to a party with Chris Nate Myles and Alison. It was so much fun. I went to beckly and got my drink on. Ended up hanging out with Hunter a bit which was really good for me and honestly I knew it would piss Chris off.

Anyway then we went to over to Mckenzies to see her band play but switched back to Beckley where I got to see and hang out with a lot of my other friends. It was a blast.

Then you have tonight were we all went to costume bingo. It was so much fun. We didnt win anything but it was still fun dressing up and hanging out with everyone.