Well

I'm kinda in this impassive stance between caring too much for a boy I probably shouldn't and not giving a damn about any of it. My minds kinda in this fuck mood right now that keeps going back and forth between wanting something and not. Honestly even if he did like me back I don't think I would want to be with him. I don't think I can trust him. Hmm. 

Christmas Time

Well I went home for break and it wasn't all that bad. I got to reconnect and spend time with my grandma. I saw friends and I wasn't harassed (unless you count by bob). I saw my mom for a brief point in time and things went well. We didn't fight and things were civilized.

However she did give me this really nice Christmas present. Didn't I just lecture my grandma on how I hated that me and my brothers were brought up with the idea that material possessions were better than actual compassion? hmm. If my mother thinks for one second that her giving me this present will solve anything than shes wrong.

You can give me things all you want but until i see an actual change then whats the point. Thats all I want for Christmas, my mom to change and actually care for once. Until then I guess theirs always next Christmas..

Happy Holidays!

Boy Take Down

Oh boy. What have I got myself into now. Well for starters I'm at my grandmas house. Me and her made amends and things are going good. Other then that I don't really have a thought on anything else. My mom and me are still on the outs and honestly I'm ok with that.

Now here comes my boy drama. So I started hanging out with this guy named Aaron who seemed cool until i found out he used me and he had a girlfriend, that's not cool. So then I started talking to this new guy who turned out to be Aarons roommate. Lucky me. Now as payback I'm going to get with Jakeb to make Aaron mad. I'm just slightly cynical. Its a horrid habit.

Hell Week

Its that lovely time of the year again where everyone loses there shit over finals. I am not one of those people this year since I already did two of mine last week and did my last one yesterday. No my freak out right now have to deal with me getting my appeal approved for next sememster and because Hunters leaving in 2 days.

Seriously all my friends are being super nice and understand toward me right now because they know I'm about to lose my shit over him leaving but there good about it and letting me enjoy it.

Other than that I'm here until Sunday and then I think I might make my way to Logan to visit some friends, see my grandma, and my little brother. Then I'll probably come back to Manchester or go stay with my dad. I haven't really decided yet.